OH MY GOD. I MIGHT HAVE TO MOVE AGAIN SOON!! It's a good thing everything is still packed. Feels like we've been reaching into nothingness for some time now. I'll be honest, the most I've had on my mind is getting the money to see Chris Isaak again. And not just the one ticket. I want the V.I.P package. Dammit I want my PICTURE!!! Actually that's a lie. I've been thinking about anything that makes it seem as if my life has some sort of roots. I am temporarily living in the house my mom and her boyfriend are renting. My clothes are here, my bed is here, and my stuff is in the garage in boxes, getting dusty. My posters are rolled up and sitting on my entertainment desk, and I miss having my cave. I miss my room a lot.
But truly, I am ready, finally at the age of 26, to be on my own. YES it's lame but it's true. It would be nice to be able to do, wear, or say something without worrying what my mom thinks. Even if in the years we've lived together there's probably not a lot I haven't said or done, or worn. But I will miss her, but it'll be okay. I'm happy to finally be able to live with my best friend.
I've been sleeping deep and dreaming crazy shit. I've been hungry and sick at the same time, and I've had legs so sore you'd think I'd been riding horses. (Go ahead, make a sex joke, I"m sure you will.) I've been watching Drag Queens be fabulous and lip sync for their lives, I've watched my man sit in Bhutan and be a sexy piece of ass. I took a nap this afternoon and woke up at 5:00 pm thinking I was late for work. I went to Carlsbad, NM after a week of pretending I wasn't in town, ate twinkies and watched television with my Sis. Frankly, I'm fucking tired.
I think I should go to sleep.
On that note, here's the gratuitous Chris Isaak picture!
HAZ A GOOD NIGHT PIPPLEZ!!
~Moni
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