"Dirt Eater"

She was pretty sure she'd given her father and all his imperfections enough forgiveness.

Years before, faced with the large man or not, she still would not have had the gall to begin to talk to him this way. Now that the words were flowing from her lips she realized the aftershock of this was going to be more than she would be able to run from.

"Fuck it." she had thought.

The little girl that was "fathering" miles away from the town he'd raised her in had just had a baby. The girl was the daughter of the woman that her father had married, whom she loving reffered to as "The Sausage".

The little girl had given her son her father's first name as his middle. The name of her first little brother. This would be the straw that indeed was going to crush the cammel into dust. Poor proverbial creature already lay beneath a mountaness pile of straws. Fuck it's back.

Her nephew, who really hadn't spent too much time with her father and had been sick at birth, was now second banana to this other little boy: and the worst part was he didn't even know it.

And because her father had now dragged her nephew through the mud, it was now more personal than it had ever been before. It was no longer just about her and her three male siblings, no. He'd made the new life part of it too. He had no shame.

Her sister in law had said that he'd tried to stand up for himself, blamming the baby's name on the new wife and stepdaughter. Well none of that mattered as her feelings poored out into several text messages and one horrid phone call where he'd turned it around and made it about how hurt he was.

Her mother had stood in the kitchen demanding she hang up on him. She said she knew how to deal with him. Whatever the case, she was 25, and according to her father she was overeacting and too old to have these feelings, saying that they were never gonna go away.

I'll always need my father....is that what he wants to go away? Well then I guess I'll just have to cut that part of my still beating heart out.

Yeah it was an overdramatic thought but, hey....she had to have learned something from him.